Reblog if you have ever been hurt by someone you loved.
"She doesn’t understand that
my body doesn’t produce
happiness like hers, that all
the joy I have is surrogate,
that if it was as easy as just
being happy, I would be."
he doesn’t understand that
I’m not criticizing his sadness,
I just want him to be well so
badly and I’m completely
helpless to fix him.
"My darling, you are allowed to fail without being a failure. You are allowed to make mistakes without becoming one. More opportunities will present themselves, you will find hope again."-
this is such a lovely thing to say to somebody. I think, even if someone had said this to me in my mid-teens, I wouldn’t have been able , in the various states I was in, to properly absorb the sense of it . Nice to read it now and to be able to really feel the truth of it.
it’s kind of ridiculous that we have to work our asses off for 13 years in school just to work our asses off for another 2-8+ years in college just to work our asses off in a job that we probably don’t even like, when we were born on this earth without a choice and i for one certainly didn’t sign up for that
this is seriously all i fucking think about
then we all die. The end.
While at work today, my coworker had me take a quiz that’s basically asking what all have you done sex-wise. And I’m pretty comfortable around him so I didn’t mind taking it. But then he kept asking more personal questions and asked what I liked most during sex and I kind of just exploded and explained that I wish I could like sex but I don’t because of all of the past abuse and that it led me to have PTSD. And then he continued to ask more questions as though he didn’t understand or care about what I had just said. And it made me so uncomfortable. :/
I forgot to take my anxiety meds today. No wonder it’s been acting up and I feel like shit.
Lookie what I have. :D
I’m happy because I got a 100% on that 12 page research paper I wrote. :)
anxiety is terrible, you could be having an attack and no one would even know because it’s an inward thing. it feels like you’re malfunctioning and you can’t process your own thoughts. you get a knot in your stomach and you can’t take a full breath but outwardly you can literally just sit there and look completely normal as long as no one tries to speak to you.